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Sunday, April 25, 2010

2:52:00 AM

I need to let out this expression of mine... So i guess this is the best place....

I just have no idea why am i feeling like this... Its like a feeling of unfairness... I thought relationship is abt trust. So i trust her abt my secrets and my past.... But why cant she be the same way... The more painful thing is that she keep saying 'nutin' when theres something to continue abt... its been 2 days straight that she did this... ARGH ! ! ! ! ! !

I really tried to control this but its really hard for me to do so.... its been while since i had this feeling... This time i tried to keep it to myself.. But for how long?
hope this ends soon or im going to explode...

Fantasies can be better than Reality(NoMaD)

Friday, October 09, 2009

4:15:00 AM

Hello again... This is the longest so far that i haven't been updating my blog.. hmm... how long is it?? around 10 months... hahahahaha....... Alot of things had happened to my during this past months...

Just dun noe where to start.... let me see...

First of all.. ive been single for ard 6 months now... Ok thats a long story... and i would like to keep it to myself...

I got myself another part time job at AKLTG as a TA which lasted for less than 1 month during the school break... its fun being the 'DJ'. Most of my post is with the Primary school kids.... which was really fun to be with... Its ok with the sec school too except Monfort... no offence.. It SUPPOSED to be a school with discipline.. but i dun see any of that for both 2 days... There i was being so tired and lack of sleep as i need to wake up at 5 and reach home at 8 plus hang ard with the guys at nite... And not forgetting abt my job at ikea during weekends... Oh I am Still working at ikea for those ppl who wanna know...

Hmmm school... Well i passed all my repeated module and now i need to repeat this last module... well for me its a suprised for me to repeat on 1 module... In semester 3.1 i was supposed to take my MP/SIP.. but i didnt cause my CU were short my 1 pathetic point... So i have to take my elective subject which is robotics... I could tell u that those 3 subjects were really hard... And the lecturer even say that one of it is an UNI standard module... try to think how tough is that... most of us taking were like OMG we are just poly student... for me im thinking ITS THE END for me... but its a miracle that i pass that module.. haha.... Now im waiting for any news about my MP/SIP group and project... ARGH im really lost.....

Hmm about me... Where should i start.?? well i have got myself a bike.. YES ! ! A BIKE ! ! ! Its a X-1 110 cc bike... Got it with part of my bursary money.. And i have to pay the installment every month... Well seriously thats nothing to boast about actually..Only my frens and some of me cousins knows about it...

I have not been playing soccer for a while now.... But i pick up a new sport.. Sepak takraw... Its kinda hard to play but im giving it my best.. I twisted my elbow yesterday... and yes it really hurts... haha.. but still doing my handspring... Yes i am crazy.. And NO i dun want to lost my hand.... haha.....

This is a picture taken during hari raya outing with frens and its everyones favourite picture... Well raya felt pretty boring this yr.. which i dunnoe y.... Hmm we still got 2 weeks of raya to go...

OK as usual i end this post with the sad part of my life...

Seriously i have bee thinking alot lately about life... About owing someone which i did not do.. and also my love life.. I am really afraid to love again... Due to wat happen 6 months ago... Even though i like that someone.. It seems that my heart dont want to make the first move... I noe that she will be taken by someone else if dont make the move... But i cant do anything.... And i dont like to compete for someone... But my only hope is, if she feels the same way as me and understands me, she will wait for me till im ready..

I guess thats the end of my post since my elbow is killing me plus im sleepy... i try to update the rest of the things happening for the past 10 months and also the present...

Fantasies can be better than Reality(NoMaD)

Friday, December 12, 2008

11:05:00 AM

I just dont noe what to do... my life is a mess... finally after term test and i start to remember the feeling the hurt in me... I wanted to trust her but she just dont let to... she doesnt trust me??? well i have no idea what ive done.... maybe studying at nite is a wrong thing to do to her... but i guess going out late at nite partying is a right thing to do... shes trying to blame me for going out at nite... but what did i do?? i just went studying with my frens.... by doing that, she things that im forgetting abt her and enjoying myself... and she got pissed by that.... Well ya... is studying last min enjoying??? she hates me doing that.. but what about her going out at nite?? i can accept the fact that she got most or maybe all guy frens... cant she just understands how i feel? didnt call, msg me even when she got home.... and she got pissed with me calling her "frens" to noe where she gone to... great huh... i think half of the guys has already given up being with her... but me, i am still with her cause i love her... cant she appreciate that... some times i have to be alone at nite, maybe for a smoke to let go all of the negative stuff happening to me... I wonder how many guys has she be going out with or meeting since im with her... my guess.. ALOT...

I got alot to type here but the sadness is too much for me to control.... guess maybe another time... bye now...

Fantasies can be better than Reality(NoMaD)

Monday, December 01, 2008

3:19:00 PM

Welcome to the month of december... Lets hope that everything will be enjoying everyday..

Well for the past month, ive been feeling moody almost everday and i dun noe what cause it?
I just felt useless... What i want is to see her leading a good life... and to fulfill her promised...Is it hard? Ive been thinking about it... she had broken 3 of the same promise.. and she has just broken one more... Maybe that promise is too much for her.. maybe i just have to forget the promise that she made to me.... What am i anyway, Im just a stupid, crazy guy and cant afford to buy her happiness.... What am i to do anyway, I guess she had her own source of happiness for others than me.... Having lots of guy frens... going out with them.... with free transportation and all sorts of stuff... Sometimes she really makes me think if Im the one for her?? or maybe does she really cares abt who am I to her?? Haizzz.. want to last with her... but does she wants it to be the same? Alot of questions so little time....

Ill be going off to school now....

I hope she understand my feelings towards her...

Fantasies can be better than Reality(NoMaD)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

1:27:00 AM

Month Of NOVEMBER and this is my first update...

Well I miss the update on my bdae which is on the 6th.... HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME ! !...

What else?? hmmm.... life been boring... school quizes work... in recovery.. haizzz... actually i have alot to update.. but i just forget what is it.. hahax.. well untill i remember.. bye now...

Fantasies can be better than Reality(NoMaD)

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

8:38:00 PM

Long time no updates.. hahax... Getting abit lazy to updates nowadays...

Its Hari Raya this month... I would like to wish everyone Selamat hari Raya Aidilfitri... Harap maaf jikalau tersilap segaler bender lah ekh.. hahax...

School reopening soon... But time table hasnt come out yet... Wat to prepare? hmm NOTHING ! ! Im not ready for school yet.... I have no mood to go to school after wat i got for the results.. haizzzz.......

Well wat had happen had past.. I just need to accept the fact...

Few days left to school... and Few weeks for ehemm hahax.....

Fantasies can be better than Reality(NoMaD)

Friday, September 26, 2008

11:55:00 PM

Almost a month now that i didnt update this.. Has been very lazy lately.. which i dunnoe y... Well recently out of comp for a few days... Taking care of someone who is warded.. and now at home...

Almost at the End of fasting month... Hari raya coming soon.. but i dun think it will be the same as the past yrs.... well just dunnoe wat to say now...

Next updates will be a long one i hope..

Fantasies can be better than Reality(NoMaD)